Kelly KleinDear Santa,
What a crazy year it has been! I know it’s been a bunch of years since I wrote you a letter (links to my old letters are below). Maybe you can help me with a few things. I don’t want material things. I don’t need more stuff. But perhaps there are a few things you can help me with as you fly over the world in your sleigh full of toys.
First, I want COVID-19 to be over and done with. We are all getting COVID-weary. People are suffering all over the world. I’m tired of all the mask and social distancing. Even as an introvert, that is difficult because I am human and humans need each other. The world wants a sense of normalcy. We don’t want to live in fear of a virus.
Secondly, I want to stop feeling the pain. I left a bad situation. I know in my heart of hearts it was the right thing to do. Yet I’m still experiencing a lot of pain. The pain of having been mistreated for so long; the pain of leaving my old life behind; the pain of feeling unsuccessful in my attempts of moving forward; the pain of being so behind in my 40s. I’m working hard to move forward but I feel like I’m spinning my wheels. It’s also so unfair that I was treated badly, so I leave, and I’m the one who has to put her life together, when I removed an inconvenience (i.e. me) from his life. I’m the one with the pain. He isn’t.
I desperately need courage. I need courage to get out of my comfort zone…to do all the things I want to do…to help other people…to put out my books…to achieve some pretty crazy things. I have 200 items on my bucket list…I don’t want to die having not done them. Otherwise, what’s the point of living? I know courage comes from experience…but maybe you could give me a boost? And, in that same vein, perhaps a little strength to get through the obstacles? I’m in the toughest fight of my life. One thing that I really want to be able to do is take a solo road trip across the continent and live in Los Angeles for a year. I feel like that’s a great way to get some grit, which is what I so desperately need. It seems like a silly dream, but it makes sense to me. I want to encourage others to dream big dreams that may seem outlandish to others. I hope to have the courage to pass my road test. I am getting better with driving every time I practice, but still need to get better at reverse parking. I need my licence if I can ever hope to do any road trip.
I would like the ability to grow as a person so that I may better help other people. I try to help others with my blog posts, but I feel like an imposter. I am trying to “act as if”…meaning, act as if I’m already there, so that my brain and heart are fooled into getting me there. Yet I’m worried that I will be called out as an imposter, when all I want to do is help people not go through what I’m going through right now. I also want to be a better person to attract a better man to my life. I am willing to wait a little while, just so I can get to know who I am and become the woman a man would want.
Help me find my tribe. I lived a life of shelter and isolation. I’m ready to get out there and meet people. It makes me nervous, but I need friends. I want to have people to go on adventures with. I want to have people in my life who like me just as I am and inspire me to be better…and also that I can do the same for. I’m ready to let people in.
I don’t wish for pain and suffering to completely end because we get stronger in those experiences, but I hope everyone learns from their struggles and takes control of their life. I wish everyone would see that.
Please help my son to thrive after I uprooted him from the life he knew. Help him to see it was the best thing for us at the time. Help him have a good Christmas. None of that situation is his fault, and I hope he knows that.
Please help my ex-boyfriend get the help he needs to be better for his next relationship. I don’t want another woman to go through what I did.
And to all my friends and family, I hope they are all able to live their best life on their terms. I hope they don’t live their life as other people tell them to live. Life is too short for them to not go after what is right for them.
So I guess that’s all. I really hope you can help me with my requests, Santa. I know they’re easier said than done. Have an awesome journey around the world, and sprinkle a little of your magic over everyone!
Oh, and if you have time, feel free to add to my growing Back to the Future collection!
